Not sure if i feel better or worse. down to just 40 bucks untill next friday,i have no idea how im going to make that work. But its my fault for spending money i shouldnt have on things i didnt need. Now im guilt stomping all over myself, which is what i usually do.

on the bright side, i finnally managed to order my free tools from school yesterday. sop thats good.

and i have work for the next few days, which sucks, but it could be worse.

Thats all, I guess.

Schools almost over, YAY!  Works almost over. YAYAYAYAYAY!!!!!

Im getting a bigger paycheck and i just installed a new carburetor in my truck. WHOO-HOO!!!!

I feel somewhat alienated from friends and family lately. It seems that my interests and the direction Im taking with my life are difficult to relate to. I seem to have nothing to talk to anyone about that they care to hear.

I miss my friends, butt i cant imagine what we will have to say or do together once I come back. Jay has school and the baby, and Myles just got shot down by my mother for the chance to room with me. My brothers in jail, and Courtney is busy with school and her new job.

And Ill be busy with working and trying to pay the bills too. All of this makes me feel sad a lot lately.


In other news, my sink is broken and I havent been sleeping. My smoking is starting to get out of hand again, but i cant seem to help it. And every manager at my job calls mr names and treats me like dirt.

And im only whinning about any of this because thats what a journal is for.